News Pluck

I start my day with reading The Star online every morning.

Normally, I won't feel any bit of feelings after reading some news bits. But today, this news certainly made me feel a little sad. :(

Snatch thieves kill brave teen

I don't know. Maybe because when I was 17, I was expecting a whole new long life ahead of me (of which I presume the guy to be too) and then, his life ended just like that. And what's worse, he was on trying to do a noble act.

This gave me the same effect as those people who jumped in to save their drowning friends/family and then, in the end they are the ones who drowned. Double :(

Maybe the guy is to blame, because he didn't put on his helmet. The newspapers reported that his friend said they planned to throw it at the thieves once they get near enough. Of which, I don't think I can blame him because even if I don't have the intention to throw it at the thieves, I might just sped off without bothering to put my helmet on in the spur of the moment.

And then, there's this.

Palin not scoring favours in Republican states

I mean, the news doesn't really get me at first.

Because honestly, I think Palin is really such a dumbo and bimbo. This comes from me, who thinks I am such a bimbo. On the day I saw the naming of McCain's running mate on CNN, I told my sis immediately, "Sheeshhh, she's too shallow".

Whatever she is doing now points exactly to what I say that day, and I am damn proud that I got it right at my first glance at her.

Clever, bright and exceptional people got this aura around them, believe me.

She doesn't have it, at all. What Condolezza has. What Hilary has. Or locally speaking, what Zetty has.

This powerful women emits something from within them - from the start of when they strut their walk to the minute they open their mouth.

And what enthuse me even more is the bit on when she criticizes the scientific community. Totally laughable!

She made fun of fruit fly research in Paris, which she (and you) probably don't know, but that is the simplest form of molecular biology & genetics experiment to conduct. You know why? Because I did that in my first year majoring.

Which means, it is the basic-est of the basic research! It's like you're making fun of that brick that is the fundamental piece of Twin Towers or something.

And what about they say that if McCain has any complications and Palin to take over as president?

TOTALLY SCARY RIGHT!?

Without doubt, Democrats and Barack Obama is winning this hands down.

Cheer Up My Day!

The last weekend, I was officially pissed off with BF because of some certain misunderstandings that I chose not like to divulge here.

Yes, I said misunderstandings, meaning I have confronted the problem and I know the source of it.

And I have the impending power to be pissed off, because I find that this unnecessary communication breakdown can be can counteracted simply by an act of courtesy by The BF, of which I know probably slipped off his mind but which caused me missed my lunch and stayed hungry until dinner.

If anyone would have known me, I am completely Dr Jekyll and Hyde when I am hungry and without food. I think it must be something about my glucose level that triggers some kind of chemical response that pulled my temper stunt but I am completely without doubt hostile when hungry.

Tim and Jo, in 2nd year has learned so much of this that whenever they find that my temper rises without warning, the first thing they do is find me food :P

Men and their never-ending habits of "practicality".

They think everything is "common sense" and that everything should be as how they think it should be, and everything else that isn't has definitely something wrong with it.

Anyways, I shall not blog on how I find the unique uniparallel minds of men are annoying me to the tip of my hair because men can never plan two extra chess steps ahead; just solely for the reason that The BF hates it whenever I put something in my blog about him, especially something bad about him.

Despite my temper and vengeful spirit, I still managed to keep my rationality in check to avoid talking anything specific about it here.

I am trying to cheer myself up (heard about the Chelsea loss?).

By of course, thinking of things that makes me genuinely happy.

:)

By this, I generally go through my pictures because I love my pics and videos to death; and great memories are always retrieved best this way. So here goes.
Things that I love (and miss):

1. Life at Xavier Hall

My third and final year, I moved in into a wonderful church hostel called Xavier Hall. This place truly shares my laughter and tears, and I have enjoyed myself thoroughly here because of the residents there. :)

I have my ultimate posse of friends in Gil, Isaac, Sheena and Mel - where lunches and dinners are a daily adventure. Occasionally the cheerful and bubbly Joo Ming tags along and we are headed off to a day of good laughs! And of course, my ever entertaining roomate, Shing Huei, who never failed to impress me with her sets of opinions.

Never a dull time. Of course, there are house conflicts, which I find absurdly entertaining now - but not so that time. Many times where I am caught in the middle, it can be quite stressing!

BUT they are part of the memories I guess! I think all types of people being thrown to live around together is such a handful to handle, because we are all different personalities and character!

But it is also what makes being together so special and we really appreciate the different attributes in different people!

Like, I think there are some of us are good listeners, some are better are cracking up jokes and some are just good jolly companies!

Either way, I have truly enjoyed myself in Xavier Hall and the warm surroundings of my room there. Sometimes I really think that my room there is a safe refuge because I spent so much time there and I have personally arrange everything to be of my liking.

I hardly spend time in my room in Kuching except for sleeping, and the room is filled with junks from my house that's not even mine (which make me feel sien because I have no idea where to put them).

2. Catholic Students Society UM -CSSUM


I have spent unarguably tremendous of my time in this society, and I am pretty happy that I make a wise choice in joining and being loyal to CSS!


I've gained a fairly good amount of quality friends, of which I have no qualms on giving half of my kidney to should I need to and of which I know I can turn to for any help.



The memories I had of certain events like the ICG and Coffee Morning and Malam Suai Kenal is one of those kinds that I hoped should I have amnesia, those remained.

But I think the best memories of all is just enjoying going to masses and events and looking forward to dinners together and basically just enjoying each other's company.

:_)
I think if I talked any longer, tears will hesitantly roll down soon because these are one of the things I know I have lived on and cannot return to anymore.


The beauty of youth sometimes.

If I know today is going to be a bad day, all I have to do is just hop to find my CSS group of friends of which I am ultimately confirmed in for a good jolly fun!

3. Beaches

I love beaches!

The wind, the sand, the water! Everything about it!

#Palawan Beach, Sentosa, Singapore

Let me tell you a secret! Last time when The BF and me were still courting, he was sooo nice (past tense ok) that we will go on day trips to the beach on quite a frequent basis!

My frequent is maybe once or twice a month and that is frequent because the nearest beaches in Kuching are 30-45 minutes drive away! Normally if there are no overnight plans, I don't think I will get to dip my feet in sand.

#Pandan Beach, Lundu

So now I believe in the saying how when you're still dating, guys will pluck the stars for you but once you're steady, plucking the flower from the garden is a like a impossible task -_-'''

Because we don't go to beaches anymore :(

But I extraordinarily love beaches. Esp on my own, just taking the whole view and atmosphere in.

4. Mahjong!

Need me to say more?


But I must admit, sometimes MJ does give me mood swings (from losing and lousy tiles!) but I must say that whenever there is a chance for me to play MJ, I don't think I will miss it for the world lol.

4. Reading + listening music

Esp near bedtime. And with a totally engrossing book. And good music.


I love fictional books and Reader's Digest. And my music can be of diverse sort. But I never like loud music.

My faves are Rascal Flatts and High School Musical's songs! (laugh I don't care)

Can be very very therapeutic because your mind just blows away to the book in your hand.

5. My toiletries / cosmetics

I love shopping for toiletries / cosmetics!

I am huge advocate of drug-store brands, not because I believed in them but I am on an eternal forever search to find the ultimate item that doesn't cost me an arm and a leg!

Actually buying the items doesn't really enthuse me. My enthusiasm comes from researching the best items and their 'ingredients', and then when I bought the right thing that comes with value with my money, I will be absolutely estatic!


Among items that I have used a huge deal of researching on and finally finding a HG (holy grail) products are Loreal Blush Delicieux in Sandalwood Veil, Neutrogena's Alcohol-Free toner, Biore's Milk Sunscreen for Face, Kanebo's Media foundation powder, Avon's Ultra Luxury eyeliner (smudges easily though but good for smokey eyes) and Head and Shoulder's Silky shampoo .

These are the things I will repurchase again and again and again, until they discontinued it (pls don't *puppy face*)



Obviously I have more things in my possession than in pictures above, but I am too lazy to take pictures of them because they are obviously all scattered everywhere!

Some of the items are obsolete because I don't use them anymore!

6. Make up!

I loveee make up!

But I am also a person who doesn't like to spend 15 minutes on makeup! I am very au naturale because I always go out with minimal make up, but I am one person who probably cannot live without makeup!

Make up can make a person who looks normal dazzles!


I am very happy that make up covers my pores, make me look fairer, open up my eyes, extend my lashes and don't make me look like a corpse!

In fact, when I am free, I always try on my makeup and see the different ways I can use them for different look!


I am absolutely not a pro in make up, I am still someone on the verge on trying out the skills!


Sometimes when I think I am in the wrong field (*cough cough nerdy scientist*), I dreamed of being a makeup artist or something.

because make up CAN make a difference, I don't care whatever all of you out there wanna say!


It's good if you believed in natural beauty but truth is not all of us are born with perfect complexion, supple lips, shiny eyes and high cheekbones.

If there is something you can do to make you look more acceptable, why not do it!?

Needless to say, I also believed there are no ugly women, only lazy ones *flips hair bimbo style*

6. GOOD FOOD!

Must write in capital because I adore good food!


People who know me probably memorize the fact that I am a person who eat to live, not live to eat. I can totally ignore food if not for the fact of my crumbling stomach.

And added to that, I am not picky in my food either.


I can eat one acceptable dish with rice and not complain.

My relatives used to say that the man who marries me is a lucky man because I basically just eat everything thrown to me, provided it is not stale and not something I detest.


But irregardless of that, I am such a glutton when it comes to good food!

Like when I am hungry and the food is in front of me, I'll start going at the food! And that's why I don't have pictures of food, because by the time I've realized, the food's gone -_-'''


I love sushis, I love laksa and belacan beehoon, I love PizzaHut's seafood platter, I love All Joy's Milo Bun, I love spagetti bolognaise, I love Secret Recipe's Mango Delight, I love SunnyHill's icecream, I love J.Co donuts, I love a lot of things!!!

Sigh.. so there, makes me feel SO much better already! I hope you guys can forgive me for the lack of posts hehehe

:) Back to work.

The fashionista gone dead..

My bit of being a fashionista has failed.

Like, seriously.

Because the other day I bought Crocs-lookalike Mary Janes from Skechers. You know? Those Crocs' plastic material-like?

Once, I used to vow to myself that I will never get those ugly stuff on my feet. Fine, they are comfy. They are weightless.

But they are ugly.

Even when they came out with better designs, Mary-janes, slippers yada yada yada, I still cannot accept the plasticity of the design. And further more added with bright colours. Cannot accept at all.

And yet the other day I went out and get them.

Because my shoes are biting my feet so bad, I now have bad scars on my heel (no joke, real bad ones). And at an attempt to 'fix' my feet, I went and bought the supposedly 'comfy' shoes. NO, they did not helped ok. In the end, I am happily stuck with my $16 Ipanema from Singapore which I have been using every time I go out ever since I came back from my convo trip.

I thought that the lab maintained a 'covered feet' policy, but the other day I went in with my Ipanema because my heel was bleeding and nobody commented anything so now I am wearing them everyday.

And so, the time finally came with I prioritize comfort over looks which make me finally succumbed that I am officially on the way of becoming ah ma.

My pumps, wedges and heels are all thrown unceremoniously aside.

:(

Which make me sad because I know looking good makes me feel happy (well, at least in front of the mirror). And channeling the creative energy, like matching the most unlikeliest clothes together gave me a strong satisfaction whenever I felt like I did a splendid job.

But people can't be sooo (and I mean sooooo ok) judgmental of what you are wearing!

I mean, if people were to wear ugly or mismatched clothes, nobody will say, "Hey, your sweater's hanging too low" or "your jeans shredded" or "your tee shirt's overwashed" BUT BUT BUT any attempt at trying something satorially different like being a little bit retro will generate like enormous comments from people! (if they were to notice)

There's so many times when I generally tried something different and had someone who isn't fashion-conscious going like, errr you sure you can pair those with that?

LIKE HELLO!

Should I be getting advice from people who lives in tshirt and jeans? RIGHT. You guys really know how to match clothes, I get it. Tshirt jeans Tshirt jeans Tshirt jeans.. what an easy life!

I wore something really retro the other day, with polka dotted shirt and red balloony skirt, and yea guess what comments and feedbacks I get from people!

Anyways my point is I have started to dwell on these comments and grow lazy to dress up anymore because of the general perception the normal population is (i am guessing fashion conscious people are only a small 15% of all population lol).

Like I generally get 0 appreciation from Kuching people, this is so sad.

In KL, some people can be really appreciative - I had two different ocassions where girls came to me and said something nice about me. One was about my necklaces and the other was my effort at wearing a skirt as a tube.

In Kuching, I have resorted to teeshirt and shorts EVERYWHERE, this is really really very sad man!

Ok, maybe I'll just look in my wardrobe today and play dress up in front of my mirror, how sad. :(

To my MSN mates..

Foo Chee Liang, are you trying to run away from our 'argument'! Then lidis is I win ok!?

Tim, I haven't seen you shake your butt on webcam for ages (actually today only wakkakaka), where the hell r u, my mannnn!!!

Lisa, I do think that Ashton Kutcher is hot. uh-uh. Hot. With a capital S. What do you mean hot is not spelled with a S?

Alvin, morning!!!! this is the way we greet each other every morning lol.

Cyril, Pamela Anderson or Kiera Knightly!
(and oh, to your question just now before I went away, Zac Efron laaaa!!!! obviously duh)

Jo, the answer to why woman always have mood swings when they're PMS-ing is because all woman have split personalities. really.

I HAVE THE BEST JOB EVER! hahahaha

(because im allowed to chat lol)

Ok, besides Alvin, because he is PAID TO CHAT!

Thanks my MSN mates! :)

Sad news..

I got sad news people...

Right after I got back from KL and settling in Kch for good - May '08

My Genetics dinner - April '08

Shopping with Sheena and Gil @ Pavilion - April '08

Trying clothes @ Jusco - Feb '08

The sad news is...

I no longer looked like that in those pictures above!

It was a slow phase towards the shape I am in now, so I hardly ever noticed how I had ever changed!

I have been in perfect denial about my bulging stomach and my meaty thighs, thinking it is some phase that I can just dismiss because I have always been skinny all my life, resorting that my body will finally adjust back to its "normal" shape after a while.

It hasn't quite revert back, and I don't think it ever will :(

The reason why I realized this is when I started to have difficulties in stuffing (read: stuffing) myself into my shorts and pants when I am going to work. The reason why I never realized is I have been wearing certain kinds of clothes during my bummer days, and either those clothes expands with me or they were a little adjustable to allow for a little more secondary growth, I don't know!

But once I started my work and picking my jeans and slack pants (which was untouchable for 4-5 months) to work, they didn't fit me anymore!

The last row was when the first week, I was slumping in my chair (added in the bulge of the stomach) and then suddenly the button of the jeans went 'pop'! Yes, the button of the jeans fell off due to the internal 'chi' my stomach (and fatness) provide.

Laugh la, but this is the depressing stage of my life, my body has finally lost its spectacular metabolism! People loved to smack me in the back and exclaim loudly how awfully skinny I was, esp in secondary school days but I don't think it occured to them how would I look if I was a little bit meatier?

I never thought of this until one day, this friend of mine who was on library duty with me said how skinny I was and then I cleverly, spontaneously remarked back, "Can you imagine me bigger size than I am now? Will I look better?"

And then she had her thoughts up for a while, and then said, "Yea, I think you will look so different. Probably not even you.."

From then onwards, I kept imagining myself putting a little more pounds (which I had people, if you were to compare my sec school days and now) and truthfully, I can never see myself as the more normal size Suzie.

I did put on a few more healthy kilos after Form 6, of which many had complimented that I look a whole lot better than my skeleton figure in sec school.

But there are pros to cons to everything.

I was never conscious about my body when I was in sec school. I maybe on the thin side, but I never worried about my abs, my legs or thighs.

And another thing I like is that my face looks slimmer and looks a whole tad better when I am thinner.

While most would agree I am putting a more healthier looking front now, I am very worried about my abs, legs and thighs. They keep protruding in ways I don't want them to (or how), and I feel so un-buffed.

:(

It is very depressing. Why can't extra kilos come on without excess baggage on these fat-accumulating spots! My tummy is seriously protruding when I am sitting down, and and my thighs looked like elephant's next to my sis now!

I used to be a size smaller than her ok! And now I am heavier and bigger -_-'''

I guess this is what living in Kuching does to you: less walking/exercise means getting meatier :(

Oh KL, how I miss you sometimes.

:(

And no, I am not anorexic or bulimic - I am a size 4/6 when I was at the "top of my game" and it could be bigger now since I've grown bigger wad -_-'''

Do you like what you are doing right now?

I caught a pretty bad virus from The BF.

I don't mind the fever, or the sore throat but I mind the body aches. THAT is so torturing.

OK, my post is not exactly how sick I am [although I am!]

My post (as posted on my fb as well), do you any of you really truly enjoy your job right now?

I was talking with a mutual friend the other day, who wasn't quite happy with her job because of how things around her are going. And because she has been working for quite some time, I thought I'd ask some experienced folks on how the working world really is.

I am like this because *fingers crossed nobody from my place sees this* I am not really that happy in research. I was obviously thinking of variable options on how to make it more "lovable" to me!

Believe it or not, I actually was thinking whether I should be continuing in this field when the sign horoscope in the newspaper on Sunday told me this, "You're looking for a career change. But is it practical? Try instead to channel your creative energy into making your workplace more interesting.." or something like that la.

And I was stunned because it's as if it reads me and my thoughts!

But of course, I never believed in horoscopes anyways so I am going to shrug that as incoincidental shot.

I am trying to make this work people, I am trying!

How I normally survive is I get inspiration or motivation from others. But I cannot think of a friend who truly, positively enjoy their job!

Like, I cannot take motivation from anyone at all!

I mean, people will inevitably talk about their jobs in a negative tone. Like how I was questioning The BF on why does he loves his job - he said he never said so ler!

I mean, I detect this from how he tells me stories from work - like who he meet today, or eat with or what he was doing. I thought he generally liked his job! He said he haven't really started dhis job yet, thus he cannot really comment on how "lovable" the job is!

While I don't hate my job and the environment and the people, I don't like it. Because my heart's not in it.

And by like, I really mean when you start to not mind doing what you doing. I mean, come on of course, given any time, all of us would love to laze at home and eat McD's but because we need to club eat, thus the need to work!

I am saying despite the fact that the need to work and getting up on Mondays after a long restful weekends and not being able to fly off any time to any where in the world, is there genuinely someone who thinks, "hurm, luckily i got this job!"

I am looking for a job like that. I am young and have a lot of passion in me, and I just don't want it to flow wastefully else where.

While you can try to be a cool person by saying "try putting ur passion in the job u're in now!", I would advise, stop trying to be a teacher unless you are doing so yourself.

You cannot just plummet yourself into a swimming pool and expect yourself to love chlorine.

Loving doing something needs passion.

I don't know where it comes from, but I know it's in me. somewhere.

So unless you are the few odd ones who truly are captivated by the line of your work, pls preach to me. But if not, stop saying annoying things like be grateful. Because I am grateful and that's why I am still heredespite the heavy heart.

And also because I am almost darned sure there are aplenty people out there who are not happy doing what they are doing.

Right?

Absurdly high... over nothing..

This is a post directed to all people who missed me!

Ok I perasan. Only Tim in Indon missed me, or he is spending too much time on the Net because he is fast running out of sites to read about. *of which leads to him threatening me to update or else he takes back his lucrative offer on a treat*

OK update!

I have realized that people love to soak in other people's misery and feel good about themselves, so I guess that's why 40 of you are constantly coming back huh? Because I am miserable. And lost in life. And absolutely direction-less. Har har.

Ok, this is going to be a fast one because I am trying to waste time till 4.30pm (by blogging, good job Suzie!) before I headed for "closure" where I will try to again delay time by doing things real slow and tadaaa 5pm! YESH!

*yes this is how I am like before 30 minutes later where I will be sound asleep on my couch at 5.30pm har har har. Can you detect the extreme opposites?*

*wait, look left, right, behind, under - make sure nobody is looking. Ok, clear! types real fast. tap tap tap!*

TODAY IS UBER BUSY!

I must thank a certain someone who scandalously chatted to me yesterday and said things will take a turn for better and it did! I was so busy today, I barely took time to "fish" on my desk!! Honestly right, I hated my job after my first week.

It was so mundane. So lab-by. So tedious. And precise. And detailed. Like there's a freaking reason for everything.

I am not that at all.

I am random. And expressive. And all over the place.

Not precise. Or calm. And controlled.

And so I prayed. Hard.

That either God will give me strength. Or eat least chocolates for me to live on.

I didn't exactly get that today but it wasn't so bad today, so I am going to take that as a good thing.

Oh yeah, and The BF?

And just brilliantly came up with a plan on certain weekdays when we will meet, like 1,3,5 or 2,4. And he asked me to choose right. And guess what lar, I did get A1 for Maths what - I chose 1,3,5 because Sat and Sun sure meet right so that's 5 days in a week hahahaha I'm so good at this I should be awarded!!!

And think of course, I realize this is so weird, because why should I be compromising and then proud of it some more that I supposedly got the better deal! Suku!

So I told him, if don't want to meet, then don't la, if wanna meet then fine la -which is a worser answer, I can assure you hahaha because he is now at my mercy. When I wanna meet, then meet - if not, then he can rest at home. Sounds like on call only lol.

*cue track on The SuperManipulative GF*

Oh and another thing I enjoy is..

Online on my table WITH MY LAPTOP!!!!

IT'S Baccccckkkkk! And that's why I can type 100 words per minute now.

Yes, because my laptop is so lovable, she deserves all the love in the world from me now. Too bad she still needs to go under the sun everyday for the walk to/fro uni hahahaha.

Walk to uni.

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Sheesh. sounds like I am still studying. which I probably am

Ok, 4.30 liao! "closure" time!

*dance the jingga jingga dance*

COUCH HERE I COME! SOON SOON now!

Hrm..

My title is 'Hrm..' because that's the way how I am looking at things now.

I really envy those of you who know what you want in life and strive hard for it; because to me, it seemed like I am living a life on a buoy boat and waiting for anyone to toss me a life jacket anytime ow.

Ok, this is how it's gonna work.

I've read in blogs, in papers, anywhere where readable practically - that rule no 1 is thou shall not blog about work. Period. I do not want uncertain circumstances arise, should persons I do not want to read me come across my blog, so anything else from now on should be more of like 'generalised' rather than written very detailed.

Actually, I do not know whether I am officially 'working' because my job just requires me to read, read and more reading. I am learning technical skills at the moment, but right around now, where I am training, there's just so little that you can do, I guess.

In comparison to the old lab in UM where I used to work at, I must say the lab I am in now is top-notch. The DNA flow is pre-determined to prevent contamination, which impresses me very much. Back in my old lab, we just do everything on the workbench that we were assigned to.

Here, there are benches for extraction, different rooms for master mixes preps and gel electrophoresis and more (which I have not explored).

And there's a flow of how you do things, so that you prevent contamination.

What's even better is that nobody is there to fight with you; the place's available most of the time! And then, there's the thing with using everything kits, and filtered tips - everything expensive back to us then during undergrad days.

Ok, stop about the scientific things.

I still miss UM tho. I am used to the really flexible working hours. Yes, mine is flexible too, but for ethical reasons, you should at least be around 8 to 5.

Maybe being bummed for 4 months+ really get to me, huh?

I felt like giving up sometimes, but when I see people like The BF and this ex-classmate of mine who persevered through their work without complains, I felt like I shouldn't give u because of these small issues.

I think I have been pampered long enough; people have always been providing for me and that made me a person who runs away from my problems instead of facing them.

There's good things about my new place.

I like the place because it's 5 mins walk. To sum out how near it is, I can walk home during lunch time; had lunch and nap for 10-15 minutes before going back to lab again.

I barely spent a cent on anything when I am here. :)

But what I don't like? Nothing about the lab actually.

It's more of personal issue than anything. I don't know if I am good enough for research work because I got hand tremors. Very bad ones. My senior taught me some work yesterday and was stunned to see how much I shake. He kept saying he didn't dare to see me work because was afraid I contaminate the samples (things have to be precise).

Oh, the pay will always be late which probably teaches me I have to be more savvy with money I guess.

And I have yet to receive my offer letter, so I don't have a card or tag - so every morning, I have to befriend the guards because they kept asking me, "Mana tag?"

Why they don't remember me, I don't know. But I don't remember them either. lol.

Every week, there's a meeting and group presentation and I am really afraid of this, because my presentation skills suck big time. But my motto of the year is "Take Risk" and try my best at it, so this is how I hope I can improve on my stuttering presentation.

Oh oh oh, and should I take Masters, my topic is really really hard, which make me wonder whether I really wanna go there or not. Commitment issues really:(

I am glad I stayed in Kuching, you know why?

Because every night before I go to sleep and wake up in the morning, I miss The BF. This is coming from meeting him every single day when we were still bummers :(

We tried meeting after work, but it was tiring. The other time when he was supposed to pick me, he overslept on the couch and missed our date and the other time was my turn sleeping on his couch.

So much for trying to make all this work.

But at least we can see each other when we are free and want to :love him to bits!:]

I would like to ask you working guys. Do you guys are excited to finish at 5 but when you reach home, you get so tired you slept even at TV?

Because I am. And I don't know whether it's because of my low level of energy (take spirullina wtf?) but I really want to maximize my whole day (ie only get tired at 10-11 pm?). I start feeling tired when I reach home around 5.30 and will always dozed off at any opportunistic chance (watch TV, on the couch, reading) but I always try not to.

End here, I am actually typing this to kill time. Bad bad girl! Ok, back to more readings! :(

Update or not

Suzie is not dead.

Suzie is trying to live a life.

A life non-existent, that is.

I am sorry for my post, Acer people. Call me.

I need my laptop back. I am bored beyond words. :(

More journals. Later folks.