Rant rant rant

It's 12pm in the lab now and I am terribly hungry, with my stomach embarrassingly growling like the sound of thunder and my futile effort at trying to keep the orchestra down =/

I feel that I must write something today for the whole week I was sick, weak and passive.

This week (Monday to me, that is) started off with a holiday which is great news folks, because it gave me time to recuperate for my week-long sickness! I even had time to clean up my room and rearrange my cosmetics, skincare and reading materials yesterday yay!

On a negative note, my mom nagged to me this morning about my lateness in giving her pocket money this month, which resulted me in a bad mood to work :-(

My defense is I WAS SICK WAD! I stayed home the whole week! Did she expect me to rush to the ATM just to get money for her? SO FUNNY

I tried not to get it affect me, but unfortunately failed - I am thinking it is part of my "perfect" syndrome I got. Something along the line that I want everyone to only think the positive of me and unable to accept negative feedbacks about myself. I am working on trying not to mind what other people say/think, wish me luck folks teehee

ANYWAYS, this month I have been overspending already!!!!

I know, it's only the 10th! *bummer*

But on my defense, it is something totally worth it because I have decided that I want to splurge on my skincare!!!!

All this while, I have always been splurging on skincare and cosmetics way past whatever money I have, but more on the drugstore brands la. This time however, I am determined to do in-depth research and find all my HG products!

And then continue using all these products without needing to change my regime ever again in my whole existence in this earth wtf haha

I think being a girl is damn mafan lo. We have to take care of so many things at one time (our looks wise) and then, as if having wrinkle-and-zit-free face is not hard maintenaince enough - they all want us to be successful women/scholars and juggle career, love life and family -_-'''

If that is not enough, we still have fan about our periods and our hormones (mood swings and weight gain) , all in the while we have to look fabulous and svelte.

Ridiculous la the expectations they have on females nowadays haih

So anyways, I was talking about my skincare la wow how did I jumped to some feminism rant haha! I have been sinful some time back because I was over at my bf's house (teng teng teng!!!) and then I fell asleep (!!!!) while watching him play Xbox (chiuuuu....!)..

Why is this significant!? Because I fell asleep with all 345678 make-up products on my face la. So now my cheek, jaw and forehead is ridden with zits from all the stupid sleep (didn't seemed stupid then hrmm..) with make-up on haih

I have been make-up less for the past week in my attempt to detoxify my face haha! What a terrible turmoil it had been because I kept feeling like I am incompetent to appear in public haha, you see what effect make up has on me!!! It is not better now la (so fast du good lo), but I am trying hard not to revert back to my days where I absolutely unable to live without make up!!!

But do you know how hard is it to get quality skin care brands in Kuching! Sigh, I am looking at Kiehl's and Origins because I prefer brands which infuse more nature elements in their products but you know the trend, they don't have shops in Kuching what :-(

So sad one.

I reallyyy think I should become a researcher in cosmetics la, because I truly believe I have passion in the chemicals in a jar etc and all that jazz haha.. Finding them out is actually FUN to me rather than some job task I have to complete oops!

Oklah, end of story I wanna go back mam mam dy muahz folks! Will story more next time!

:-)