Revelation

I think I have always been a relationship counselor ever since I started having interest in boys.

Reason being I have an impeccable sensitivity towards a person's behavior and actions, and then I start analyzing them. It's like some psychotic behavior I have in analyzing relationships and human behavior. I have an instinct I would be great in psychology if I decided to pursue haha.

All these relationships' minute details has replaced the role of TVB/Korean dramas in my life, because honestly I am too busy for TV anymore. MSN chats / SMSes / emails overtook TV role which of course puts me in the running of the first few people to die of boredom without the Internet.

To sum up all the conflicts I have put myself "in-charge";

(1) A girlfriend who is falling for the world's biggest flirt who she can't seem to keep away from
(2) A close friend who is developing infatuation for a girl he often sees at his favourite lunch spot
(3) A friend who is staying with bf but wants to break up (but the hassle of moving etc sigh!)
(4) Someone who is liking this girl who is happy being single

These are the ones I've particularly been actively involved in by giving advice and what-to-do's and what to interpret from the other person's actions or words. But there are still small little ones where I've been correspond from time to time which doesn't really need strong involvement lols but still some participation at the best.

I find it funny because I've been asking these people to think with their mind all the time. "He's not into you", "don't fall for his/her tactics", "you've got to be strong" etc when once upon many times, I've also been one that was ruled by my feelings and not my head.

It frustates me when my "under-charge's" don't act as how I advised because I have to come up with a whole new plan/scheme to figure out the problem. But how I conveniently forget when I used to tell myself to "keep away from him" or "he's not good enough for you" or "he's going to hurt you" ; but I still went back for more damage -_-'''

Why all these little enlightenments is because today, one of my "under-charge" sort ot retaliated back to me.

I confronted her because she went back on my ban of no contact with the guy; and went out with him for dinner and supper until 2am when she has work the next day (she needs to wake up at 6 0_0)

She fought back with,

Dun tell me u hv never done sumtg spontns like dis!
It isn't rite, it wud hurt in d future, im wrong - but I CANT HELP IT!
I am not prfct, im not u!

How bizarre. Because I am not perfect too.

Despite my "phenomenal" analyzing skills. Despite my self-proclaimed integrity in love and all. Despite my cries that all is fair in war and love. Despite being the tremendously empathic person.

I AM NOT PERFECT EITHER.

And how funny that it took me one person (thanks anyways friend) and lots of memories to remind me, that I used to be vulnerable too.

Revelation indeed.