Uncomfortable whistles and teases!!!

This post is going to show through some of my (private) insecurities, but I am not going to care anymore. F--- everybody who might be offended, because right now, right this moment, I am the one who should matter.

This is actually a small matter, but I am going to make it big because I feel that small things like this should matter and should be taken note of so that the big things can be solved.

Most of you who follow my blog regularly knows that I walk to my workplace (i.e a uni) where I work as an Research Assistant. The place is 5-10 minutes walk, very near in comparison to the 30-minute walk during my uni days.

I admit, on the first few months I walked to work, I felt very dismissed - by everybody - my family and my BF. I felt that I needed a car to get me to work so that it's safer for me, and not forgetting more convenient.

But after seeing how my colleagues are staying back until 6-7pm to skip the jam because the jam outside our faculty was unbearable especially right after 5pm, I thought walking isn't that bad. I get to go back at 5pm and exercise as well, and everybody knows how much exercise I need. Plus, I found out that walking back is faster than travelling by car home. A walk home is approximate 7 mins max, car can get to 20 mins or more, depending on jam.

Plus, parking spots in my faculty is a bitch - colleagues has been complaining about parking at weird spots.

Now, on the way to work, I need to walk by this MPV Unit Station (Police).

I thought in the first few months that I am lucky that the centre is there because surely, my safety is more safeguarded with the unit in the middle of my track home.

Lately however the officers working there has been quite a pain in the ass. They kept on whistling and phewittt me while I walked past. And while I can waved them all off by ignoring their calls, it gets kind of irritating! And these are police officers!

If they are commoners, I'd probably show them a black face and stare them down but these are police officers! What would happen if I show them some negative body language that I wasn't pleased with whatever they are doing?

So, I chose to ignore. Everyday, I would pass by the station, get whistled at and walked straight without looking at them with my MP3 at full blast.

Then yesterday, when I was passing by their station, a MPV was on its way out of station. Instead of straight turning into the main road (it was clear), it was quite obvious the officer driver who noticed me walking towards their car, was waiting for me to bertembung with his car on my way. (sorry English quite bad now, can't think, still quite angry).

Here a diagram to show it clearer:

The grey path is the pedestrian path and as you can see, there will be a point where the MPV Unit road will overlap with the pedestrian's walk.

Now, I would presume, as a good driver (presume because I don't drive) that the driver should have moved a little front so that I don't need to walk around the car to continue my walk. But if I can guess, the driver was actually waiting for me to do that because he stayed at the middle of the path, exactly where I would have walked.

I didn't want to walk in front of the car, because I hated when how some naughty people do things like jerking the car forward like as if they want to hit you or blowing their gas real loud while you're passing by in front of them - and at that moment, I just thought I want to escape that so I chose to walk behind the car to get to the other side of the pedestrian.

And this is where I really boiled. I can safely say I can ignore all the whistles and constant teases, but I will not tolerate obvious gestures of kacau-ing me.

The bloody fellow actually hit the reverse gear and backed a bit, like as if he will hit me but the car didn't touch me at all.
I know it's just a naughty, playful gesture but I DON'T APPRECIATE IT, thank you.

And further more, they should have some sense in their mind that they are wearing uniforms and least of all, to make me, a citizen feel uncomfortable with their actions. I think it is quite obvious I am not amused by their antics with my constantly ignoring them, so why the constant provocation?

I told this to my BF yesterday, and as usual, his unsympathetic reactions are really getting to me. I've told him many times prior to this that I wasn't directly comfortable with the teasings and whistles but he told me that it's just something that I should bear since I didn't want to get up early to ask my brother to send me to work.

Maybe I am a little bit bimbo-ish or acting princessy, but somehow I think all man should safeguard the interests and most importantly, the safety of their loved ones, especially of the weaker sex. I do not expect him to fetch and pick me up from work, but I would like a little bit of shown emotions like anger or unjustification that this is happening to me, his GF, but instead I get this message that it's normal and something that can be taken lightly.

I AM FEELING UNCOMFORTABLE AND TARGETED ON, HOW IS THAT OK!?

This morning, while I walked to uni, they were banging against something and calling loudly to get my attention. I have no idea what are they banging against, because I didn't even want to look at those losers but I knew I was deeply uncomfortable after yesterday and today's, and something had to change. Can they even do those things in their uniform?

After not getting the reaction I want from the BF, I started turning to my guy friends. On why the need/ mentality of disturbing girls, what are the fun or benefits coming from it, how can the girl make it stop? Just because I am too rational to begin with and I am in research, so everything has a root cause.

Frankie actually suggested good things to me, like asking my parents to the centre and complained to the superior since he thinks that those who are disturbing me are young officers. Which I would consider but I don't want them to target me next time if I file a complaint against them since I need to walk by the centre everyday.

Another friend who I rather not name said maybe I should dress less noticeable in order to make it stop. When I told him I always have my jacket on with my jeans, he said maybe cause I am quite attractive looking, slim and all that. This is where I go WHAT THE FUCK!

So what if I am attractive looking!!!! Does it gives you the permission to whistle at me!? "Oh, she's attractive, phewitttt!!!??"

WHAT THE FUCCCKKKK!!!!

Wrong wrong mentality!!! And not forgetting people thinking that it's ok, but the person getting whistled at is UNCOMFORTABLE. So why would you do anything to make someone else uncomfortable!!!??

My point is, no matter how small the action is (whistling, teasing), it is an act of discomfort! Everybody does it, so everybody thinks its ok! But it should not be!

I want to feel comfortable walking to and fro to my place of work everyday!

And stop talking about "we are appreciating your beauty..." or "beautiful things are meant to be appreciated..." and all that shit, I DIDN'T ASK YOU LOW-LIVES TO APPRECIATE MY BEAUTY by whistling or teasing me!!!!

Obviously still mad at some stupid MAN's mentality!